yeah my life definitely sucks. I'm running around smiling and laughing about it but all I really want to do now is just be alone and cry.. I don't want to be strong anymore.. I'm beating myself up and then hurtful words being said to me and my own realizations are breaking me slowly but surely and I don't know if I can take it anymore. I'm like on the verge of crying right now. I'm being told that I'm very gullible.. I know i am here&there but not all the time.. I've made mistakes let me learn don't sit there and rub it in my face as if thats how you think I'm gonna learn. it sucks because the only reason im so sensitive and I guess gullible is because I've been stuck in the same place all my life, my house. I have yet to live and learn.. and yeah I try to tell myself that they're only trying to protect me but no you were only keeping me from learning.. from living. from finding myself. I dont even know who I am.. I'm so mad because I see everyone living learning laughing and I'm here doing what?! the same ish I've been doing and what good is that doing me?! I'm not a slore I'm not an alcoholic im not a smoker, what else do you want from me?! I'm smart enough to make smart choices so stop making them for me. stop judging me with others actions. im not them.. wahh I'm so pissed.. I may have alot of guy friends but that because they're easy to talk to and theyre not quick to judge, atleast the guy friends I have.. and i don't assume right off the bat that every guy that talks to me likes me. UH HELLO I'm insecure AS FUHH. what makes you think that I think this guy likes me?! im too scared to be in a damn relationship and in not trying to be in one.. im just in that whatever happens happens stage. not trying to make anything happen.. uggghhh please just leave me alone. drunk people say the worst.. it's always the truth of how that person sees or thinks of you.. and yeah it sucks because finding out that someone close to you thinks that of you.. that's cool. your lucky I'm nice.. well i dont know maybe I'll be back later.. I just needed to vent.. now I'm gonna go cry gahhdamit.. ugh my life can suck it .. :'(
goodnight.
peace&love,
rinamichelle<3