you know, i never thought it'd come to this, but i miss you. i mean we're 'friends' we're there for each other when one of us is in need but thats rare. anyway, i just saw a picture of you and i just suddenly felt that.. i miss you kinda feeling. i know we've rode one of the biggest and toughest roller coasters together through this relationship but what i really miss were the inbetweens. yehknow, when we didn't argue, when we just loved each other genuinely, i guess you can say, and just appreciated each others presence and the thought of just being with you. i don't know, im not trying to say i want to get back with you, i mean we've had our time and unfortunately it wasn't the right time, but im just sayin' i miss those times. i did love you, you know. i still do but to a certain extent, i mean technically we are basically strangers now, so i guess you can put it as an 'i love you, broseph'? hah. any reminiscing can suck sometimes, but its for the best, reminds me im strong enough to move on to better myself and my life, and that you've gone and found someone better, someone who makes you better. it's also a reminder that i survived a long way without you, and im perfectly fine.
anyway, i need friends. or just a friend. someone who i can talk to about this ^, and not have to blog about it, talking to myself. just someone who will be my bestfriend and only my bestfriend. apparently you can't find many because everyone labels everyone as their bestfriend. don't get me wrong you can have more that one bestfriend, but come to think of it, theres always that ONE out of all your bestfriends who you hangout with the most, and talk to and share ALL your secrets to. well i dont know, how would i know anyway, right? exactly why i need friends. well goodnight.
with love, rinamichelle<3