ventsesh.

blogging really helps, it's been awhile since I've been here, but this is where I usually post my personal stuff where I don't want others seeing. anyway, I recently just started talking to someone. I was scared, because I always put myself into situations I don't like and as of right now, I kinda don't like it. I really like this guy, he's imperfectly perfect.. but the thing is he just broke up with his gf. according to him I'm not a rebound, he simply just doesn't dwell on the past, on things he knows won't work. so he simply just doesn't waste time.. that's what made me even more afraid though, besides the fact I don't know how to do this whole relationship thin anymore.. but yeah, right now I'm kind of dying a little inside.. he posts about his ex, indirectly, maybe I'm over thinking it maybe it's not even about her but it goes along with the vibe I get when he texts me. i dont know what I'm doin anymore guys, my life is just all over the place and i dont know how to put it back together. I'm such a mess. ugh all these emotions, I just want/need to cry. I need to stop jinxing myself. over thinking is not a good thing whatsoever. someone please pull me back into reality. or just somehow make a miracle happen and make me a kid again, where I didn't have to worry about things like this. I'm stuck right here, be back after I get sleep, gooodnights.